It's officially one week until we find out what primary school Lily has been offered a place at and I am beyond nervous!
We've pinned all our hopes on a school we love ever since we visited back in October! The application was sent off in December and it has been moths of waiting to hear, but now that we're in the final countdown stages, I'm so nervous.
I thought I'd be cool about it and "go with whatever happens" but now I've turned into that crazy mum that is considering back up plans incase we don't get the dream school. At one point I seriously considered just sending her there anyway, just turn up on the first day of term and shuffle her in with the rest of the kids (I told you, crazy!).
What doesn't help is that they don't inform you until 4pm?! That I just don't understand at all! It's as if they've sat there thinking "How can we make them more nervous? I know, we'll drag it out until the end of the day!"
I'll be sat in my office at work and I know i'll be constantly refreshing my email until I get it!
School is something I am DESPERATE to get right. Education is important and I want to make sure she has the bets start and this feeling of being so out of control on the decision is a nightmare because I can be a (small, tiny, wee) bit of a control freak!
Does it really matter though? I'm trying to tell myself that the other schools we saw and discussed were just as good and offered the same standard as our first choice, but in reality, I don't think they do. Then my mind spirals off thinking that she'll then get into a rubbish secondary, rubbish GCSE and on and on and on.
My sister was fortunate enough to get a bursary and scholarship for a private school and it taught me how much the school you go to really matters. She has had some amazing opportunities that she wouldn't have got at a "below average" school. I can't afford a private education, but I can at least try and make sure Lily has the best opportunities and facilities I can get.
I'm hoping some of you are just as nervous as me now that we have such little time left until we find out!